Track 28: BDSM

Welcome to episode twenty-eight of the Mixtape Book Club Podcast.

In this episode, Ellen and Mal welcome back author CBFirestarter to discuss fics involving BDSM (or Bondage, Dominant, Submissive/Sadism, Masochism). Fics include CBFirestarter’s War Wounds, I Wanna Get Outside (Of Me) by emwebb17, Beg Pretty For Me by kittimau, and “Yes, Sir” by Redamber79, among others.

You can find our Mixtape Book Club Ao3 collection here, containing the stories we’ve discussed on the podcast so far.

As always, Mixtape Book Club contains swearing and discussion of adult topics. Please listen at your own discretion, with attention paid to any little ears that might be nearby!

A transcript is available for this episode.

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Our Guest – CBFirestarter

You can find all of CB’s Destiel works on AO3 under CBFirestarter.

CB’s other BDSM fics include:

• Willing & Able (74,671, E)
• Here Kitty, Kitty (2772, E)
• Cage Your Cock (6384, E)
• Cuff Him (4724, E)
• Custom Piece (4807, E)
• Different Kind of Therapy (8997, E) – with TrenchcoatBaby
• Waiting on a Signal (90,777, E) – with TrenchcoatBaby
• Whiplash (131,655 (wip), E) – with TrenchcoatBaby

Featured fics

War Wounds by CBFirestarter

Published 2019/20, total 77k words, E

Surviving the war had been one of the hardest things Dean had ever done. Coming home from the war is proving to be even harder. Lost and adrift, he feels like he’s drowning. When he happens upon a horse farm looking for help it might just be the lifeline he’s been looking for.

When Cas meets the new farm hand he sees the same injured look in those eyes he’s seen time and again in the horses he’s rescued. Can he break through to Dean the way he has with his horses? Teach him to trust, to surrender, to connect. Can he break down Dean’s defenses without destroying his own? Maybe with a little hope and a little rope they can find a way through together.

I Wanna Get Outside (Of Me) by emwebb17
Published for DCBB 2015, 143k words, E
Art by esper-aroon

Dean is a novice in the dom/sub world asked by his employer as a desperate last resort to be a sub for his recluse of a brother, Castiel. Castiel is a diagnosed OCD suffering from PTSD and agoraphobia, mysophobia, and dystychiphobia. Needless to say—he’s a mess who hasn’t stepped out of his home in literally seven years. The only times Gabriel can see traces of the way his brother used to be is when he feels in control—specifically when he has control over a sub. However, due to his idiosyncrasies and paranoia, keeping a sub around has been impossible. Enter Dean, who’s not a very traditional submissive, to try his hand at subbing for the hermit.

Beg Pretty For Me by kittimau
Published 2020, 5600 words, E

Team Free Will won, Dean and Cas are in love, and all is right with the world.

         “Cas…” His eyes flutter closed, mind slipping into the warm, pleasant haze of that special place, the one that allows him release, relief. Peace. Heart pounding in his chest, he fights the temptation to touch himself through the delicate material because Cas hasn’t told him to yet and he wants to be good.

          “I want to hear you say it, Dean.”

          “Fuck…” He swallows thickly. “Yeah. I-I feel beautiful.”

“Yes, Sir” by Redamber79
Published 2020, 6015 words, E

Dean’s earned himself a spanking, but keeps losing the count. Cas decides it’s time to up the ante for his punishment.

Other BDSM Fics

Thanks to all our friends in PB Discord for being so generous with recommendations!

• Gabriel’s Gift by CassiopeiaMercutio (5418, E)
• Take the Lead by JinxedAmbitions (66,586, E)
• Playing with Fire by anyrei and queerwerewolf (116,432, E)
• Rooftops by Taybay14 (66,837, E)
• Fire and Ice by Castielslostwings (189,629, E)
• Four Letter Word For Intercourse by bendingsignpost (194,739, E)
• SextersAnon.com by Unforth (169,136, E)
• Sweet Boy by mishaminion69, sydkn3e (195,727, E)
• String Theory by NadiaHart (40,428, E)
• Standing There by Anonymous (37,680, E)
• Cas and Dean’s Excellent Kink-venture by Chasingrabbits & thepinupchemist (26,622, E)
• To the Edge and Back by wannaliveindeansdimples (5337, E)
• A Change of Scene by SurlyCat (7606, E)
• Damn Fine Ride by Cimorene105 (8054, E)
• The Scening Route to the Heart by MashiarasDream (14,565, E)
• Surrender by ThePornFairy (97,080, E)
• Right to Lose Control by prosopopeya (8498, E)
• Pink and Blue by jemariel (4934, E)
• If You Hurt Me, That’s Okay, Baby by blue_jack (31,673, E)
• Take Me Deeper by Unforth (2391, E)
• a delight for the soul by sharkfish (24,386, E)
• heart-shaped spoon by sharkfish (2081, E)
• the answer by sharkfish (3089, E)
• Impaled by ThePornFairy (5329, E)
• Version 2.0 by Elizabeth1985 (75,937, E)
• A Little Patience by riseofthefallenone (288,620, E)
• Some Kind of Courtship by Annie D (16,732, E)
• Fire and the Flood by nhpw (32,355, E)
• Wanna Be Your Soldier by Anonymous (5278, E)
• I Shall Believe by dothraki_shieldmaiden (80,745, E)
• Weak by Petrichor_Amber (5532, E)
• Kinetics by kittenbot (106,440, E)
• I Can Make You Scared by Dangerousnotbroken (136,333, E)
• Protect and Serve by jupiter_james (205,198, E)
• Let it Snow by KreweOfImp (301,586, E)
• The Hands That Bind Me by Zombiecat (56,287, E)
• Orpheus by sysrae (84,007, E)
• See Me by MandalaRose (2614, E)
• The Escape Artist by vipjuly (95,780,E)
• Remember Me After the Storm by Desirae (47,424, E)
• Russian to the Altar by MalMuses (144,273, E)
• The Accidental Bull Flip by MalMuses (13,603, E)
• Coffee, Tea or Me? by MalMuses (23,705, E)

Tag analysis

This chart was created by scraping all Castiel/Dean Winchester fic metadata where the tags included either “BDSM” and or “Dom/sub”, then wrangling them to account for differences in the tags (eg the Dom Castiel count includes Dom Castiel, Dom Cas, Dominant Castiel, Dom!Cas, etc).

Mouse over the bars to see which tag it represents. You can click the “Full Screen”button in the bottom right corner to see the full chart. (Ellen is a Tableau novice but enjoying mucking around with it)

Other links

• Love Destiel? Join the community of readers and writers at the Profound Bond Discord server. We have a Mixtape Book Club channel there!
• Our RedBubble shop is here. Any profits will go directly to Random Acts.

What’s your favorite BDSM fic? Please let us know, we’d love to hear from you!

Our intro music is “Angel with a Shotgun” by The Cab, arranged by Ellen.